Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Thanksgiving......

The day we are to give thanks, others protest we are to give thanks everyday. While that is a good idea.....most do not! Thanksgiving gives us a chance to come together with our families and share our thankfulness with and for each other.....and of course, everyone's favorite.....EAT!

But, I, as well as many other of you, have suffered great loss or many losses this year and honestly just aren't looking forward to the Holidays. This year changed our lives and our celebrations forever! We are missing loved ones very dear to us.....do we have things to be thankful for.....sure! But it is very difficult right now in our grief.

I find myself dreading the holidays and festivities coming straight as us and wish I could just dodge them all.....but we can't.....we must live for the living......as hard as it may be right now! Tomorrow many of us will be looking at that empty chair at the table, unable to be ignored. We may share some tears and we may share some funny memories........but our loved ones WILL be on our minds!

So let's open ourselves up tomorrow to trying to be a little more transparent with our emotions for each other, a little more patient with the annoying family member (you know you got one), and take total advantage of the time we have together.....this could very well be the last Thanksgiving many of us share together....you never know and you'll wish you had.....well don't "wish you had" instead spend the day as if tomorrow may never come, be vulnerable, give lots of hugs cause they really feel good, say lots of I LOVE YOU'S they need to be heard, listen, share, laugh, be silly, have fun, take lots of pictures, ENJOY!

But as you gather with your loved ones don't forget the broken hearted and lonely ones.....the Fatherless, Motherless, Husbandless, Sisterless, Brotherless, and the Childless ones. As you gather around your feast and join hands in prayer don't forget to lift them up in prayer along with your gratitude in being so blessed to get to spend another holiday together.....that really is ALL that matters! Happy Thanksgiving!

Father, I pray right now for the brokenhearted and lonely right now. I pray you send a kind word, a hug, some laughter and joy into their day.You see the weak and the weary, the brokenhearted and broken in spirit, the heavy ladened and grief stricken and your compassion is endless and mercies are new each morning. As we sleep tonight I pray you lighten our burdens and give us a heart full of gratitude for you, our family and fellowman so we wake up better than we thought we would and make an effort to lighten the burdens of others as you have lightened ours! We will shout Thanksgivings as you bind our broken hearts according to Psalms 147 and we will be Thankful and shout praises to You, for this is the Thanksgiving You have made and we will rejoice and be glad in it!
3 He healeth the broken in heart,
        
and bindeth up their wounds.
4 He telleth the number of the stars;
        
he calleth them all by their names.
5 Great is our Lord, and of great power:
        
his understanding is infinite.
6 The LORD lifteth up the meek:
        
he casteth the wicked down to the ground.
7 Sing unto the LORD with thanksgiving;
        
sing praise upon the harp unto our God:

Monday, November 19, 2012

My TULL Men!

These are 4 of the most important men in my life! They represent 3 generations of TULL men.....my brother Adrin Jeffrey, my son Jeremy Lynn, my oldest grandson Joseph "Jo-Jo" Nazere, and my youngest grandson Jeremiah Adrin. They come from a strong loving background and were raised by a whole lot of women. Lol!

You see the older two, my brother and son, grew up without fathers, one by choice, the other by death......but they were Men's Men.....nothing feminine about them!

But victoriously, they both have broken that fatherless curse on this family by being there for my grandchildren and involved with them......playing two of the strongest roles in their lives! Sharing "manly" things with them as well as an intense love that will last a lifetime!

This summer we unexpectedly lost my brother......June 14, 2012, five days after is 51st birthday......what a devastating loss! I am still trying to figure out how to process his loss.....his senseless, way too young, loss! Because these four guys you see right here have molded and enriched my life beyond all words to express.....these four guys are MY HEART!

Friday, November 16, 2012

Tammi's Transparencies


Hi!

I'm a stay at home mother and wife that has done many things in my life; in High School I worked at Burger QUEEN (remember that one? Lol!), been a Single Mom, a Waitress, Hostess, Cocktail Waitress at deSha's, Grocery Cashier, Hairdresser, Salon Owner and Operator, Bible School Student, Women's & Men's Jail Ministry, 2-3 yr old Sunday School Teacher, Small Groups Leader, on the Praise and Worship Team at Church, Cashier/Ice Cream Dipper at UDF, Associate at Motherhood Maternity, Assistant Manager at Stride Rite, Delta Airlines CSA in International Customs, the Boarding Gates, and the Ticket Counter, Assistant Manager in Art Store at the Airport, a Home School Teacher, a Pastor's Wife...most of these jobs were done 2-3 at the same time!

I have ALWAYS worked hard to support myself and my family! I have been a stay-at-home Mom for the last 6-7 years & have a love/hate relationship with it...it was not by choice... 

After working 2-3 jobs at a time all my life, and having money at my disposal, it was/is a challenging transition not working outside the home...it's not all it's cracked up to be...but it has it's blessings too!


I'm the mother of a 17 yr old Daughter who is a Senior in H.S. & an almost 34 yr old Son that has blessed us with  9 yr old and 2 yr old Grandsons, & Jan. 29th we will be blessed with a new Granddaughter...our first girl!

We've lived in the NKY area for 14 years and sadly, I have only acquired one sporadic friend, with each of us having our own families and struggles. Most of my friends are from my hometown and are usually all through technology....Facebook and texting. What ever happened to having a cup of coffee and hanging out....technology is not as fulfilling!

I hope I can put all my experiences, joys, tribulations, heartaches & triumphs to good use to help someone else avoid some pitfalls, maneuver around them, crawl out of them, or just endure.....to offer a soft place to land after life has beaten you up, to encourage you & lift you up, make you laugh or maybe make you cry, as I, transparently, share the good, the bad, & the ugly of my life as ME!